Hi… Sorry I haven’t posted since last week. I have kind of had the blahs. Sure we all know how that goes. The time of year it is… the weather… lots of excuses. Go figure!! Anyway… I was so excited to see comments on my blog… that made me really want to make sure that I keep up with it. So far I have been sticking to the rules… well the one I have the hardest time with, is the no smoking… it’s so damned hard to quit. haha… hubby feels bad trying to enforce that one, because he himself is a smoker, so i might actually had to edit that one or delete it altogether haha. Hubby has been really good about leaving me a list of things he wants me to do . I wake up to a list of things to get done before he gets home. I haven’t had the pleasure or pain of a spanking in about a week. So I just might have to deviate from the list just to get one. HAHA. The last spanking I got was for my attitude… which seems to be a common occurrence with me lately. I received 6 swats.. 4 with a whip… 2 on each end of the whip.. one has tassles and the other one has a leather loop at the end… and I got two from his hand… I honestly couldn’t tell which one hurt more. We decided that I would get 2 swats per infraction on the list. The best punishment that I have received so far, was about 3 weeks ago. On Christmas eve in fact. … for my attitude (big surprise) and not doing my chores. He bent me over his knee on the couch and busted my ass… then he made me go take off my sweats and sit for the rest of the evening butt ass naked. That was very embarrassing and shameful, but then again, I guess that is the point now isn’t it ?? And yes, I did think twice about not doing my chores again… at least for awhile. Hubby wants to incorporate maintenance spankings, he says I tend to do better with my attitude when I am well maintained. He has yet to do it, it is still in the suggestion phase of things. He has been a little slacked since I had back surgery about 6 weeks ago, he is afraid to hurt my back. .. but he still manages to brighten my ass that’s for sure!!! I get so excited by the fact that my husband cares enough to spank me and see that I’m behaving like he thinks I should. He is surprised that I get so hot and bothered and wet from the spankings. Of course it almost always leads to love making afterwards… but that’s a good thing right?? Ha There are some times that it is just a punishment and no sex afterwards, which at times seems like a punishment in itself. There is nothing like a good hot passionate love making session with your hubby after you have been spanked. It makes me look at him so differently after he has tanned my hide. I feel so loved and cared for and cherished. The love making seems so passionate and full of love afterwards. Well, I guess that is all I have to say for now… Hubby has been pushing me to keep up with this blog… and I will do so. I will post more shortly. Thank you… Take Care
1. No spending from the checking account of any kind without prior discussion or permission.
2. Make sure to fill med box on every Sunday morning.
3. Take meds every morning by 10 am and every night by 10 pm.
4. Make the bed before leaving the house for the day.
5. Have all chores done by 4pm m-f.
6. Keep a daily journal(meds, chores, feelings, moods)
7. Gary has the final say and authority on any subject we can’t agree on.
8. Do not argue or talk back.
9. Make sure not to have to be told twice to do something or not do something.
10. Make sure to not have to be reminded about laundry or chores.
11. Make sure to get a list of any extra housework or requests the night before and have them all done before 4pm unless otherwise stated.
12. I do all inside housework, chores, and laundry. I only do outside work if it’s my flowers or garden or a project I’m working on, of if Gary needs help.
13. No smoking, don’t even ask for a drag off a smoke.
14. Do not abuse my prescription medications.
15. Stop over eating to the point of being sick and no more than one candy/chocolate per month.
16. Stop eating junk food.
17. Work on attitude and negative behavior.
18. Do not leave trash or sodas in the truck.
19. Do what I’m told, when I’m told w/out question or argument.
Start doing what I say I’m going to do, when I say it…. Follow through with my plans
Starting out…. in the beginning….
Well, I guess it’s time for me to get to blogging. Have to say that I have yet to do this… always been a good plan, but never a follow through and always an afterthought. However… I am deciding to finally committing to this NOW!
First, a little about myself. I am a 32 yr old woman. I have been married to my wonder hubby, who is absolutely the HOH in this relationship/marriage. I own my own cleaning business which in general keeps me busy, yet gives me some freedom to do the things in life I enjoy… such as spending time with my hubby (G)… horseback riding, camping, off-roading, hiking, snow shoeing, traveling. … or pretty much anything outdoors there is possible. I have 2 children from a previous marriage, both girls ages 9 and 13. I also have a stepson who is 22 and a stepdaughter who is almost 11. I have been happily married for a little over a year now. We are both on our second marriages. We met as firefighters on a brush fire in 2008. I was married for 12 years previously to a wonderful man to whom I still have a great relationship with and whom my girls still live with in another state. G was married for 16 years who I can not say such wonderful things about as to his x. That being said, we were both in marriages where we were unhappy… hence the divorces. I am bipolar and have anxiety disorder and also have a few medical issues.. mainly related to back injuries caused in a fire training exercise. Ok… on with it. haha. From the time I was in my first relationship as a teenager, I knew that there was a part of me that always wanted a controlling , possessive, jealous man to take care of me. I of course being that young, didn’t quite understand what this was about, and for years after , chalked it up to me being confused and weird. The older I got, the more I realized just what it was I wanted in life… and in a partner in marriage, and a man. Bottom line is, I need to be taken care of ,.. mentally, physically, and emotionally. I need to have someone stay on top of my mental and physical well being. Someone to hold me accountable for my actions, decisions and behaviors. Fortunately.. this is where G comes into my life. Before we decided to get together, we both openly expressed what we wanted and needed from each other. We were both able to accommodate… to an extent. I was very happy, but recently realized that it could be taken to another level. After some research online , I came across tons of info on a loving domestic discipline marriage. G and I are working on this together. Basically as it is understood to me… this has been handed down from God. It is clear to me in the bible that the way we live, is pleasing to God. The man is the head of the household. He loves and cherishes his wife , but in the same respect disciplines her and holds her accountable. The wife is to love and obey her husband in all things as long as it is not displeasing to God. This is what I want not only for myself, but for my husband. He is a wonderful man, he works hard, he loves me, and he absolutely deserves all of what I can give him and then some. He is my world. He means everything to me. He takes wonderful care of me. I need this from him. I crave it. I need it to breathe and to function.
Domestic Discipline can be mistrewed and contorted and twisted if in the wrong intentions. That is why we try to set out to get all the information out there possible, through websites and books and also the Bible.
What I need from my husband is as follows: I need him to love me first and foremost. I need him to take care of me. I need him to guide me to make the right decisions. I need him to monitor my behavior. I need to be given a plum line to measure up to. I need him to expect things from me… daily. Such as… I need to have a list of chores that need to be done everyday, I need to have him make sure that my meds are taken as prescribed. I need him to monitor my whereabouts. I need him to help me stay on top of my health issues and make sure I adhere to all of the doctor’s orders given to me. I need him to expect the best behavior from me at all times. I am quite sure there are countless numbers of things I have not posted… I will post more as I come up with them. With that being said, I expect to be punished in any way that he sees fit to keep me on target and to make me learn from my mistakes. Whether that be a bare assed spanking, or revocation of privileges, or corner time or what have you, then so be it. It is his decision and authority to make. He has all the authority. Yes, I have an opinion and am free to voice it, but he has the ultimate say so in our house. I do not question him, well… not all the time. I do not back talk…. too terribly often. I would like to see my attitude change. There are things I want for myself that I need his help with. Smoking, Swearing, spending too much money, spending money w/out asking, eating junk food, abusing my body, abusing my medications, not holding myself accountable for my own actions, laziness, my bad attitude, my lack of follow through… there is an endless list of things I want changed. He has his hands full to say the least. I absolutely expect to be punished for my short comings and be monitored through spankings to be kept in check. I will not question him for this. I may not like it, but yet I love it. I feel needed and wanted and cared for. I need to be expected to keep this blog going… not only for our growth together as a married couple… but for my own growth within myself. On my next post I will list some rules and expectations on my own behalf so that I have some goals to set forth for myself.
Well , it’s now almost 4 am and I think that this is at least a good start.
Til then… let the beatings continue until moral improves.